why I started this diary

[Coordinator-Mikhalych]

That very girl I hurt inspired me to write this diary. And I kicked and pushed her away with this very diary.

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[Epiphora]

Coordinator-Mikhalych



I've got only one question. Not particularly for this topic but for the whole situation. WHAT FOR?

[Coordinator-Mikhalych]

Just to push her into the reality. I'm far away from her and see no fast perspectives to give her a happy life with me. She'll be happy without me. That's for sure. It was pretty terrible of me to do like that but I see no other way out of this situation.

[Epiphora]

Coordinator-Mikhalych



Frankly speaking, i uderstand nothing... You say that you pushed her into reality. But who involved her into the irreality? I think the answer is obvious. If you consider such relations stupid and fairy-tale like what for did you begin them? As a kind of excuse you give "see no fast perspectives to give her a happy life with me. " It's false! I suppose that from the very beginning you din't mean anything of the kind.



>>> It was pretty terrible of me to do like that but I see no other way out of this situation. It's pretty terrible of you not to stop the reletions now bat to have begun them, to have given a useless hope to a you creature to a really feeling heart.



And one more thing... >>> She'll be happy without me. Noone can decide for the other one, because you can't know for sure what she feels and what will be. I read what she wrote to you in her last diary message. But to write a farewell letter and to think the same and to have the same you write about are two different things! One day I also wrote too much to a very dear man. He thinks that I can be happy but I can't keep from crying and really don't know if I'll manage it some other day

[Coordinator-Mikhalych]

Epiphora You are killing me with your answers. Yeah you're right that I have no right to decide for anyone else.

It was foolish of me to start such relations with her from the beginning. But I found she needed my pieces of advice. She was interested in my opinion on different items. She got depended from me I guess. That's why I got scared and slightly tried to push her away. But she insisted on continuing our relations. I just wanted to hoe the weed with the help of the dozer blade. It was cruel for me but sincere at last. She saw my intensions and did what I wanted her to do. Now she turned to the man she really loves. He's near her and ready to help and adore her any time she needs him. Their relations were almost ruined because I got impotrant for her at that time. But now she loves him strongly and desperately. She do has the happy life. I hope so.